Why I don't want to die anymore

NOTE FROM TED: This talk represents the speaker's personal views and experiences with suicidal ideation. TEDx events are independently organized by volunteers. The guidelines we give TEDx organizers are described in more detail here: http://storage.ted.com/tedx/manuals/tedx_content_guidelines.pdf For years, Johnny Crowder battled suicidal thoughts, bouts of self-loathing, and severe mental illness. In the back of his mind, he always considered death as a sensible solution to his problems. But during a doomed flight aboard a crashing airplane, he was forced to come face to face with death and re-examine the logic behind his suicidal ideations, his bucket list, and the reason for his existence. Join Johnny on this hair-raising near-death adventure as he uncovers his fears, his dreams, his passions, and the pains that led him to long for death in the first place. Now, with a renewed desire to live, he reflects on the flawed thought processes that lead people to consider suicide, and how each of us can revitalize our sense of freedom, self-love, and appreciation for life itself.