Kathy Humphrey Posted 7 months ago do you hear voices? I've found that life crises can bring back long lost demons. Being diagnosed with cancer also brought me back to childhood traumas, anxiety, and depression. See someone who can counsel you, trust that your wife loves you and would understand that you bear no guilt or responsibility for childhood abuse, and if you have loved ones or friends that you can share your feelings with, in addition to counseling, you may find great help in their abiding acceptance of who you now are, not what once happened to you. Love forgives and heals. It doesn't point fingers or assign blame. That's our inner sense of guilt or wrongdoing that does that; that sense comes from a bewildered, traumatized inner child who is a small part of the total you. The total you is so much, much more than your childhood experiences, perhaps focusing on that may be helpful. Best wishes.