- bristol ozturgut
- New York, NY
- United States
How can I make myself more available to my community without making unfair concessions to my intelligence?
As a woman inspired by application of knowledge, I have committed myself to learning. There is a constancy to the pursuit of knowing that soothes me. But, despite the advances I've made in my own ideologies, perspectives and pursuits, I find that people are disconnected from me. I often feel alone, even walking around a city as sprawling and dense as New York. People rarely share my fondness for education. I feel alienated by my own vocabulary and interests.
What I have realized is that I will need to curb a part of my intellect in order to succeed in practically every domain of my life. My reasoning lying in my belief that success cannot occur without others' help. While I know that I am not a genius, I often find that those in position to help me are confused by, indifferent toward, or ignorant of information - in every domain, from who the hell Byron and Wordsworth are to why the moon is semi-shaded at points in the lunar cycle. Dumbfounded, I sometimes find myself insulted or even discriminated towards because of my mind. In the classroom, workplace, and even home, I am misunderstood and mocked.
What I am looking for is your opinion on how to remain an eccentric amid a disproportionate amount of seemingly-mediocre people. Moreover, I'd like to know your experiences in being discriminated against. How have you coped with the disparity between your and others' interests? How has this disparity affected your romantic relationships? When have you lost the edge at work to a charismatic, though shallow, coworker?